last night

I absolutely love my family and how we can be there for each other 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Today was hectic. I had a list of things to run around and do before I left-my day flew like none other. I had a bbq with my family, all cousins were able to make it =). Outside of holidays we really don't get to hang out much, even then we're always a bit divided somehow. For my going away though, everyone made it out to spend the day with me. It gives me a sense of peace when I have my family together, I honestly don't know why. I feel like I get this from my grandpa - he was always making sure we stuck together.

Friday night my friends had me over for a bbq where they showed me a video they made dedicated to me. It really shows how much I mean to them and it moves me beyond words to think of the trouble ALL my friends went through just to send me off.

I'm the luckiest girl ever to have so much support from everyone! Although it's bittersweet, I'm ready to take hold of this opportunity and start this new chapter of my life.

Last night in my own bed, bittersweet indeed.
Goodnight

road to paradise-song that pretty much sums up my outlook =) keeps the tears from flowing too much, this is a good thing.

less than two weeks...and counting.

so much I want to bring, so very little room

A few days shy of two weeks before my trip, my first battle is deciding what to pack.

I'm going to be living out of two suitcases for four months, I'm struggling not to over-pack. I try to keep in mind that I'm going to be carrying everything I bring and a girl no bigger than a fifth grader will not be able to pull off lugging much.

I've never had to prepare myself to be so far away from home...alone. I'm feeling insecure about travelling on my own, moreso for the loneliness than anything. I'm sure I'll be okay but my tendency of over-worry every aspect of my life is on overdrive. Definitely something I picked up from my parents.

I'm trying to spend as much time with people I care about as I can. It's good to a certain extent but it's healthy to have some ann time too. I'm feeling a little burnt but hey, days are flying.