I haven't updated in about two weeks, in which i'd gone on two more trips and futher explored Sydney. I'll update afterwards once i can upload the pictures.
I'm currently on my flight to the twin cities and with whatever battery life I have left, I'll jot down my final thoughts.
I haven't been doing much outloud reflection because I honestly hadn't been in the greatest of spirits post capa program. Australia simply wasn't the same without the people it all began with. Despite that, my last two weeks of exploration were quite successful. I was able to eat at my favorite places one last time, shop til I dropped-a few hundred bucks- on randoms that are to be christmas gifts for my loves, and simply take in all my favorite sights one more time.
I've changed quite a bit from the ann that originally bawled her eyes out at the brighten beach novotel the first day. I feel like that little naive ann, the one who'd never been away from mama, was still curled up in that hotel room when I saw it from above. I don't feel like I relate to her anymore, which was the precisely the point of why I needed this.
One really important thing I've learned was that location has little meaning. Sure, Sydney is a place I relate my great experiences too, but leaving doesn't make a difference. They'll still be there, what really matters is the people I meet. I honestly stopped missing America, I didn't care Australia had enough to offer that America was just the place where I lived, got my distinctive accent, but there was no sentimental meaning attached to it anymore. It's the people. I'm going home to my family and friends. That's what I want to go back to, because honestly, I love the sights, but if I don't get to see my Aussie loves again, I wouldn't care to turn around.
my thoughts are clogged up in a tangle and I can't seem to spew out any thoughts, quite rare I must say, but its alright, I'll check back in once i'm all settled back HOME.
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