these four walls.

Minnesota has welcomed me home warmly despite the bone chilling ( although i hear this is quite tame) weather outside. The reactions of everyone who have finally seen me again really warm my heart. Since when has one really seen other's appreciation for their presence? Sad that you really have to be gone for a while to really get it, but since i've got it, watch me bask in the glory of my return.

To be honest, being back is a bit strange. Minnesota is certainly not in the state that I had left it and neither am I. I'm not going to glide back into the little life I had prior to leaving, so how do we modify everything to finally fit? WHO KNOWS. My parents' tight grasp on my shackles is not sitting well with me, especially since I've been without for so long. the fun can't be over just because I'm back home, the definition of my life wasn't those last three months, the 'living' i did certainly doesn't end past Australia's borders.

Other than that, I LOVE BEING BACK. My friends and family really do need me and I'm readily eager to help in any way possible. The loving company I've always loved and found comfort in is back in my life, it's quite refreshing to snuggle back up to what i've adored and consider safe. The catching up we've been doing these last few days reminds me of the void I'd felt in my low times in Sydney.

I can't help but feel as if the last few months are just a figment of my imagination. The sights, sounds, emotions, and thoiughts of Australia can only be visualized in my head and expressed through my words. All i want to do is to take my loves and run them through the course of my experience. that's the kinda sharing that's necessary to fully understand all this.

I'm here back in my room, laptop as my cuddle buddy once again, yet I'm restless. These four walls of comfort aren't going to cut it, a lot of my days were wasted in here, wallowing at what I wasn't satisfied with and burying myself into the world wide web. My room will be a place of refuge. Not the setting of my life.

changed? you could say that.

ready for it? lol for a change, as a matter of fact, I am.